走近厌世仔的世界

曾几何时有一个人，被赋予正常人的外壳，活在不属于自己的世界。 他尝试接受自己的不一样、以善意的眼光看待及融入这世界，换来的却是一次次的绝望。 渐渐地他发现，伪装是唯一的出路，而他从此舍弃了灵魂，努力遗忘真实的自己。 如今他蜕变成一个 ‘ 正常人’， 他可能是你身边称兄道弟的好哥儿们，也可能是平时与你嬉笑怒骂最亲近的家人。 他必须忍受心中永远有个没告诉过你、甚至会改变你们之间好关系的定时炸弹。 而你从来不知道，他默默忍受了你多少伤害他的话。 也许他偶尔拒绝你的邀约，但请你务必明白，他拒绝的未必是你，而是虚假的自己。

有好多說不出口的話， 對談中只能一笑而過。 眼看她臉上掛著充滿期待的眼神 ， 自己卻有心無力。 心想能否有天坦誠相對， 不敢想像的迴響瞬間來襲。 騙不過自己的偽裝無數次上演， 心裡的掙扎與自責苦苦哀求。 同是生活在這大千世界的男孩， 又有几个他笑容背後藏著一樣的辛酸與命運

Five years ago at today, I achieved a desirable rank that i strived so much for in a game namely SuddenAttack Sea by the wonderful GameHi (Server closed since 30/9/2015). Back then, I was a game addict who could possibly spend over 10 hours in a game daily. I have played most of the popular computer and mobile games following the trend of the friends of my surrounding and technologies. I did enjoy and created so much of memories within the 'gaming world'. I always tried to be the top players of all of the games I played. I fell deep into the thoughts of '要玩就玩到最强' and there goes the spending of all the time and money. However, there comes a day when I finally realise that gaming does not bring me anywhere if i were to play the games that way. On 2015, I decided to uninstall all the games in my computer and phone so that I could quit thoroughly, which I have told myself to and tried but to no avail several times previously. I had succeeded this time. I managed to pull mys...